When d closest person to u died, your heart also died.
No matter how ok n how strong u think u are, u already broken into pieces inside.
And when things move on n changed, u feel that u cheated, betrayed n guilty upon the person who left you.....
Messy business huh???
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dearest hubby..
Told ya, many things are happening these days. My plate is full to the brim and I am not sure whether I can still cope with this. Every night I will be on my bed with a heavy sigh and sometimes without i realize my tears will just came down falling. If i were to save all those tears it can be buckets..
Anyhow dearest hubby stand by me very close all the time. My ever supportive husband. Have u ever wonder or think how wonderful ur partner is. Have u ever think how life will be without him next to u. I relied a lot on my husband. We complete each other i guess in our own way. We compliment each other and tolerate with each other in many ways.
He was there for weeks by my side when my mum passed away. He left his work, stayed with me in Kt for weeks. I do not know whether I will be able to do the same if i were in his shoes. He never left a single sight of me when I am in labor. He never missed my antenatal check up and etc. The lists can be endless.
Anyhow at this moment he is truly my savior. My knight in shining amour. My Mcdreamy, my everything. Seriously I breakdown easily these days. I have to be strong but sometimes I just couldnt help it. I can be very fragile and I hate people who generalize and assume everything will be ok. It is not OK.
Do not speculate and etc. I choose not to steam up everything at this moment but I talk and let it go quite often too without u realize it. I am not pregnant, I am not leaving. I am here standing still trying to be the pillar of the families , to support my siblings and everyone. My kids need me very much and I am indebted to have my husband who never tired to support me.
And everyone, marriage is not bed of roses. It is a journey... You bicker you yell, you do not talk to each other at times, you are angry but at the same time, you love, you cuddle, you kiss, you compliment, you hug, you talk...basically in every loop, waves, good and bad, you and your partner should stand strong. That will makes it stronger.
Baby Nik Aariz aqiqah n cukur jambul. Pics before and after event..
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| belum tukar attire |
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| post aqiqah kain bedung sume tertanggal |
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| sticker for the goodies bag (yassin, cheesetart and bunga rampai) |
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| getting good at doing this ever since mama dah takde (bunga rampai, air nyiur and air kapur) |
My sister gave birth early this week to this bambam 3.5kg prince charming...
Geram...mama long balik malam
Nih jenuhla kena gigit...
I wrote this on my FB recently. It reflects the big waves of change happening recently in the household.
