I have a stressful morning.
My son, Khilfi, is now showing a sign of protest most of the time. One second he can be all nice charming and co-operative, and in another second, he will be the most difficult toddler to deal with. He will scream, refused to follow intsructions and just playing hard to deal with.
He is my cry baby from the moment he turns 1 yr old. We got a good feedback from his school. Very good boy, attentive, fast learner, discipline, high motivationa nd all the good things. The moment he is back in our side, if anything just goes wrong not following what he wish for, all will go hay wire. I've lost 2 battle with him so far for the past 2 months.I believe in not going the harsh way to deal with him all these while. Konon physchology. But a week ago, he got few slap on his butt and this morning another one. I feel like a loser for being one, like a bad momma for doing it.
I've cried in the car while driving yesterday after he create a drama in Cold Storage KLCC just because I do not permit him to open the vitagen pack yet. We just had a fun evening, having our dinner together playing snapping photos with only 2 of us, and suddenly he spoilt it in a split second.
I dunno what goes wrong. I just find it hard to deal. It may be peanuts to certain mothers but I would say Khilfi is just not the type who easily lose his tantrums too. He was kind of okay-la in managing his 'do-not-want-to follow' your rule type. He buckle up in his seat, sleep on time, keep his toys properly, eat in very good way, has a very good table manners and all. Those kind of thing. He is kind of OCD like me which is fine with me. He stick with educational cartoon(which i am happy to be with), he reads well, he read iqra' well. Aghhhh..it just this tantrums thingy is testing me big time.
Its famous time is in the car(morning and evening) and sometimes before he goes to bed. Or is he just plain bored of being in the car already? my stupid theory. after all the marah part,drama,crying(both mom and son) and shouting and everything, he can be all happy again and as if everything never happened. Aghhh! stress tak cam gitu?
I just wish this will end soon. I just full with everything and tired. Seriously I am tired. I am demoralised with work. I feel stab. And whatever lagilah at this point of time. Mellow below gibberish. Apa aku cakap ni.
OK, i need to stop writing before I keep on writing junks.
Have another long extended weekend. I love you Khilfi. You're one of the best part of me and my mark of entering motherhood. I value it with all my life sayang. Toodles Peeps.